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^ Thank you. I used to be a skinny kid weighting 122-125 at 5'8" then I put on muscle through training and now walk around 138-140 and 145+lb when I have eating disorders after fights :sweat:

I used to use Fairtex BVG1 or BVG5 16oz for everything (Don't really like the BVG5 but I got them for free) Now for: Sparring: Fairtex BVG1 16oz (was never allowed to spar with anything smaller) Padwork/Bag: Yokkao 10oz (the wristband is too big for my hands though lol)

I started training when I was a sophomore in college, but I would still have to commute to the gym which is about a 45min -1hr trip on public transportation. Its been a year since I graduated and worked at my internship part-time (In San Francisco, where I went to college as well). My gym is located outside the city. On a typical day, I would wake up at 6am and work until 5:30pm. I drive now and traffic in the city sucks especially during rush hour, so I'm at the gym a little past 6:30. That gives me about 2-2.5 hours of training per day on the weekdays. However, I'm starting a new job next week. I'll be able to get off work earlier at 5am, but it'll be a full-time position. I'll see how that goes, but my life pretty much consist of work/training/family. I gave up my social life in college, which was pretty much not existent anyway as I have a introverted personality and don't tend to talk much.

Thank you I will look into it. I think that was one of my problems in my last fight, I saw the openings but could not react to them (fell back to old habits of just staying in the pocket and freezing up or being too relaxed - lack of agression). I also don't remember why I let go when I had my opponent in the clinch (the nerves maybe). I had a good performance in the previous fight (and it was the one and only fight where it was same day weigh-in) and my coaches/teammates said they didn't know why I just wasn't sharp when it came to fight this time around. Preparation, padwork, and sparring was good leading up to the fight, but I couldn't carry that momentum over... I'm also constantly told I need to be more agressive..

Thank you for all the responses. Its been frustating and discouraging at times (battling demons in/out of the gym), because I don't have a single win despite my hardest efforts. Realistically, will I be able to get any more fights in the long run? Sometimes it just feels like I'm going through the motions...

I have just lost again this past weekend making my amateur record 0-5. I know it sucks. Although, I could argue that a few were bad calls from the judges. Me being a bleeder (bloody nose from a single jab doesn't help either). However, I am particularly disappointed in this last fight. This past fight, I fought too tentatively in the first two rounds. I've always been a slow starter and fought with a traditional thai style. Sadly in America, the judges favor boxing over kicks/knees (my strengths). My opponent was a mma guy with a flashy outside-point style (spinning back fist/kicks, side kicks - but sloppy technique). It wasn't until the third round that I started to find my rhythm. I had him in the clinch, but was unable to capitalize (I let go). My coach and even the comissioner said if I had landed one more knee I could've ended the fight. I don't know though. Physically, I always felt stronger and I am usually always taller than my opponent(s). I'm 5'8" weight class 125-127lbs. However, this time I felt like I had no power (my gas was very good though). Overall its been frustating, especially with a 100% losing record I never felt confident going into my fights. I've been told I am more talented than what my records shows, but at the end of the day thats all there is to show. I disappointed that people supported and believed in me, but I let them down by not believing myself. I can probably contribute most of my loses due to the mental aspect of the game. I've never been dropped or really hurt in any of my fights (Lost all by decision). However, sometimes I question if fighting is really for me. All that hard work, training 6 days a week (barely any breaks) for the past 3.5 years for nothing .... Even though I'm only 22 (23 soon). Were the sacrifices really worth it? Thing is when I'm not at the gym (it doesn't feel right).